Drop It Run, Run For Hours, Days..
You Know It Wasn't Your Fault
Yet You Feel Responsible Regardless
You Keep Run Until You See A Playground, You See A Swing
The Days When You Were Young, You Could Swing Forever
As You Swing You Get Higher And Higher
Until You Get So High The Chains Jump
You Don't Wanna Slow Down, It Makes You Feel Better
Jump! Waiting For The Right Time, You Think
The Past, Present And What The Future May Look Like
What Happened, Whats Happening And What Could Possibly Go Wrong
You Jump, Flying Through The Air Waiting For The Ground, Heart Racing
Next Thing You Remember Is Waking Up Lying On The Ground
Walking Home, Hurt More Than When You Got To The Playground
Physically And Emotionally Hurt, Tired

Okay, Slow Down, This Time Your Going To Get Hurt.
Put Your Left Foot Forward, Then Your Right Foot.
Lean Forward, Trust Yourself Not To Fall.
Talking To Myself Was Never Healthy.
As I Wait Anxiously To Awake From This Floating Sensation.
I Trust You In Everyway Possible.
Your Under My Feet Helping Me Soar Above The Ground.
Yet Something Tells Me Your Not Being Completely Direct With Me.
Will I Fall Or Lose Balance?
My Foot Slips, I Fall, I Graze My Knees And The Palms Of My Hands.
Although I Fell It Was My Fault.
I Was Concentrating On The Fall To Come, Rather Than You.
I Get Back Up, Only To See Everyone Laughing, Pointing And Teasing.
I Run Off Crying Leaving You Behind, 15 Minutes Later..
I Come Back To Find Someone Stole You From Me.
Caught Up In My Own Fears, I Lost You.

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Sun Rising, The Rays Shine Through The Cracks In My Curtains
The Bright, Blistering Sunshine Hurts My Eyes, My Body So Stiff
My Head Aching, It's Hard To Breath, Struggling To Keep Myself Alive
My Feet Hit The Ground, It's As If They Haven't Seen It For Months
Taking A Shower Should Help Me Relax, It's Hard To Move
The Warm Rushing Water Runs Down My Back To The Floor Tiles
I Stand In The Shower Making The Water Hotter And Hotter, But
The Water Resists, It Doesn't Feel Any Hotter, Just Heavier, Intense
My Toes Start To Burn, Finger Tips So Old And Frail Looking
Getting Out Sounds Like A Good Idea, I Get Out Feeling Worse
Maybe If I Eat Something I Might Feel Better, Bacon And Eggs, Yum
It Tastes Alot Better Than The Taste I Woke Up With, So Profoundly Bitter
But I Still Feel Terrible, I Walk Off To My Room, Fall Onto My Bed
I Lay There Wondering What Happened Last Night
What Went Wrong? Why Do I Feel So Disgusting And Dirty?

I Sit On The Grass Outside My House Listening To Tainted Lyrics
Soothing My Worries, But At The Same Time It Makes Them Real
What I Really Need Is A Hero, Someone To Take The Hurt Away
As I Sit Here Trying To Improve My Mood, I Lay Down, Staring
Confused And Shaken Up, Ripping At The Grass, Gasping My Heart
I Feel Restrained, I Have No Control, I've Lost Myself In My Thoughts
I Need A Boost, Something To Lift My Spirits, I'm Searching, Yet Nothing

When You Told Me Best Friends Forever I Believed You
As Time Goes On We Change, Experience Life, Grow Apart
Slowly As We Both Try To Make This Friendship Work
We Both Know In The Back Of Our Minds It Could Never Be
I Contemplate Whether Or Not To End It For Good
I'm Not Strong Enough, I Care As Much As I Did Before
You've Changed, Your Not That Best Friend I Held So Close
I Struggle To Say Good-Bye, Can't Hurt You The Way It Hurts Me
You Talk About Suicide And How Your Life's Tough
I Tell You How I Feel Nicely, You Tell Me It Was All A Joke
You Make Me Run Back To You, It's As If By Magic

Eventually Our Memories Fade As We Get Older
Yet They Get Replaced With Newer, More Complicated Ones
As I Try To Remember, So Long Ago, When I Made You Sparkle
I Can Faintly See Your Smile As We Skip Down The Road
The Sound Of Your Giggly Laugh Radiates Your Happiness
The Memory Begins To Get Clearer And Clearer
Althought It's Not Complete, I Start To Feel As If I'm There
It Starts To Pour Down With Rain, Lightning Strikes, Thunder Shaking
You Insist We Stay Outside, We Don't Have To Go Home Yet
We Begin To Run Down The Road, Around The Corner To The Park
When We Get To The Park, The Memory Fades, Jumps And Changes
This New Memory Is Unknown To Me, Yet I've Been Here Before
Maybe There Was A Reason For That Memories To Be Erased
Your Different, Taller, Stronger, Bolder, Bitter, Angry, I Feel Confused
I Feel This Hate Towards You, Yet I Still Care So Strongly For You
As The Memory Expands, It Just Gets Worse And Worse
I Wake Up, Breathing Heavily, Sweating, Confused
It Was Just A Dream, Yet The Reality Of You Is The Same
I Begin To Cry, Exhausted From The Thought Of You

Laying On My Trampoline, Staring At The Clouds, Thinking
Trying To Imagine Life Without You In It, But It's Unimaginable
All I See Is You, Your Electrifying Smile And Your Beautiful Green Eyes
Laying On A Trampoline Never Seemed So Perfect, Usually I Jump
When I Close My Eyes, It Feels As If Your Here With Me
I Begin To Laugh And Smile, I Reach Out For You, Yet Your Not Here

Mystery Of Love - When You Like Someone And You Don't Think They Like You, But You Have A Feeling They Do
Frustration Of Love - When You Find Out They Like You And They Know You Like Them
Spark Of Love - When You Get Together
Magic Of Love - When You Feel Like Your Floating And Nothing Can Bring You Down
Fire Of Love - When You Bring Each Other Alive And You Feel Like You Can't Live Without The Other Person
Art Of Love - When It's Like A Beautiful Picture Being Drawn To Life
Emptiness Of Love - When It Starts To Fall Apart
Hurt Of Love - When It Ends
After Math Of Love - When It Hurts So Much You Can't Breath, Sleep, Eat Or Live Like You Used To
Cushion Of Love - When You Feel Yourself Getting Better
Serenity Of Love - When You Feel Your Ready For Another Relationship
Mystery Of Love - Back To Square One...

Your Amazing, Your Beautiful, Your Mind Blowing
Your Insane, Your Annoying, Your Irritating
Your Eccentric, Your Wonderful, Your Glowing
I Would Die For You, I Would Cry With You
I Wanna Hit You, I Want You Gone
I'd Give You My World If You Asked
I Hate You, I Love You, I Forgive You
People Say Your Crazy, People Say Your Trustworthy
But To Me, Your Just My Sister.

I Stand Here, Frozen, In A Moving Crowd, Thinking..
My Feet Refuse To Move, I'm Stuck Until I'm Free To Walk
People Stare As If I'm Some Sort Of Crazy
I Can't Help But Drop To My Knees, Crying
Drowning In My Tears And Torture, I Think I'm Lost
As I Kneel, Crying, A Woman Approaches Me, "Are You Okay?"
I Reply "I'm Fine", She Runs Off To Catch Her Train
If I Said I Was Upset Would She Of Stayed? I'm Just A Lost Child.

As I Lie Here Staring At The Ceiling, I Think Of Our Friendship And What It Meant
Thoughts Run Through My Head, My Head Is Flooded With Memories
As I Contemplate What Went Wrong, I Laugh With Myself
Reliving The Time We Had Is Joyful, But At The Same Time It Hurts
I Lie Awake, Restless, Out Of Breath
Eyes Strained From Crying, Fingers Sore From Gasping My Sheets So Tight
I Remember It So Clearly Now, The Friendship Was A Mistake
Although You Were The Highlight Of My Life, My Role Model
I Didn't Need You, I Wanted You For My Own Selfish Attention
I Feel My Emotions Switch Back And Forth Through Laughter And Hate
Until I Finally Pass Into The Dreaming Realm, As I Start To Dream
Your The Only Thing I Can See, I Toss And Turn, Calling Out Your Name
Is This A Dream Or Some Sort Of Nightmare
I Start To Shake And Shiver, But I'm Not Cold, Just Afraid, Afraid Of You
I Wake Up, Sweating In Fear, Yet I'm Not Afraid Just Worried It Was Real
As I Tell Myself It Wasn't Real, I Somehow Don't Believe It
I Need To Go For A Walk, Go Somewhere To Get You Off My Mind
I Stumble Around As If My Feet Haven't Seen Ground For Months
BANG I Hit The Ground, I Needed Something To Revive Me
As I Lie On The Ground In An Awkward Position
I Start To Wonder How You Came To Mind After All This Time
Time To Get Something To Drink And Try And Sleep Once More
I Wake Up The Next Day Revived And Feeling Great, Of Course The Fever Hasn't Set In
I Run Into You At Safeway, How You've Changed Amazes Me, Your Not The Friend I Knew
While You Tell Me What You've Been Doing Since I Last Saw You, I stare, I'm Confused
Your Everything You Didn't Wanna Be, Your All I Don't Like, I Dispise You
You Ask What I've Been Doing, I Keep It Short, Say Good-Bye And Walk Away
As I Walk Off I Wonder What Went Wrong With You, I Feel Accomplished
I Could Have Let Myself Become Like You, But I Will Never Lose Myself Like That.

I Was Afraid, You Helped Me Soar Above The Rest
When I'm Not Happy, You Give Me A Reason To Smile
As I Start To Cry, I Have You To Cry On
I Had My Doubts, You Made Them Disappear
I Built Up Walls Inside, Your Breaking Them Down
When Life Gets Tough, Your Worth Living For
You Bring Me Peace And Serenity When I'm In Your Presence
Nothing Is Better Than Seeing Your Face When I Miss You
You Make My Life Simply Amazing