As I Lie Here Staring At The Ceiling, I Think Of Our Friendship And What It Meant
Thoughts Run Through My Head, My Head Is Flooded With Memories
As I Contemplate What Went Wrong, I Laugh With Myself
Reliving The Time We Had Is Joyful, But At The Same Time It Hurts
I Lie Awake, Restless, Out Of Breath
Eyes Strained From Crying, Fingers Sore From Gasping My Sheets So Tight
I Remember It So Clearly Now, The Friendship Was A Mistake
Although You Were The Highlight Of My Life, My Role Model
I Didn't Need You, I Wanted You For My Own Selfish Attention
I Feel My Emotions Switch Back And Forth Through Laughter And Hate
Until I Finally Pass Into The Dreaming Realm, As I Start To Dream
Your The Only Thing I Can See, I Toss And Turn, Calling Out Your Name
Is This A Dream Or Some Sort Of Nightmare
I Start To Shake And Shiver, But I'm Not Cold, Just Afraid, Afraid Of You
I Wake Up, Sweating In Fear, Yet I'm Not Afraid Just Worried It Was Real
As I Tell Myself It Wasn't Real, I Somehow Don't Believe It
I Need To Go For A Walk, Go Somewhere To Get You Off My Mind
I Stumble Around As If My Feet Haven't Seen Ground For Months
BANG I Hit The Ground, I Needed Something To Revive Me
As I Lie On The Ground In An Awkward Position
I Start To Wonder How You Came To Mind After All This Time
Time To Get Something To Drink And Try And Sleep Once More
I Wake Up The Next Day Revived And Feeling Great, Of Course The Fever Hasn't Set In
I Run Into You At Safeway, How You've Changed Amazes Me, Your Not The Friend I Knew
While You Tell Me What You've Been Doing Since I Last Saw You, I stare, I'm Confused
Your Everything You Didn't Wanna Be, Your All I Don't Like, I Dispise You
You Ask What I've Been Doing, I Keep It Short, Say Good-Bye And Walk Away
As I Walk Off I Wonder What Went Wrong With You, I Feel Accomplished
I Could Have Let Myself Become Like You, But I Will Never Lose Myself Like That.