I've never been so sure about anything

Now that your here
Everything has gotten so clear
Even the storm clouds are calm


You told me you'll be my forever

We fight, scream and never fix it
Crying out to someone
I made a bad decision
But I'll shut my mouth

Now that my heart beats for you
Like the clock that never stops tick, tick, tickin' away
My head thinks about you
Like a song stuck on repeat playin' over and over again

You told me you were here to stay
Now you have to leave me
But, I fell in love so I know
There's no turning back

Now that my heart beats for you
Like the clock that never stops tick, tick, tickin' away
My body lies here, waiting
Like you were going to come back to me

Now that your here
I have one last thing to say
Take your bags and leave
Because you made my heart stop, now
Like a fighter droppin' their fists
'Cause they can't keep fight, fight, fightin' anymore.
I give up.

I think I love you
Say it again, tell me I'm the only one
Tell me I'm your fallen angel
That I'm not sleeping up on a cloud
Waiting to fall for you

For love, for love

Funny how, we'll do anything for love

Thinkin' it's the real thing
Believin' all my feelings were so true
For love

You let me hit the ground
I hit my head and broke my leg
As you broke my heart in two
Ya know I believed in you
And everything you used to do

And you know that you hurt me then
but I would do it all again

For love, for love
You know that, we'll do anything for love
Thinkin' it's the real thing
Believin' all your feelings were so true
For love

What did i do wrong
I'm choking on my tears
It doesn't have to be like this
Stop hiding behind your fears

For love, for love

You know, we'll do anything for love

Thinkin' it's the real thing
Believin' all our feelings were so true
For love

I Aimlessly wandering

Tripping, stumbling over my feet

Slowly moving through the crowd

Zombie, zombie, zombie

That's all I am

My best friend.

You take my beatings.

Listen when I need you to.

Hug me until I fall asleep.

Stay with me when I cry.

Laugh with me.

Your always there, when I get home.

iLove you Bella, My teddy bear.

i want to see you one last time

i am taking the pills now and forever

no, no please don't

don't do it, your crazy

but it's freedom

freedom from here

no, you'll be away from me

for a very long time

baby..don't stop talking

i love you

stop! please, please don't go

i couldn't leave you

good, your okay

i'm not okay

i'm writing my good-byes

the letter to my family

letter to those i knew but never forgot

but your not dead

it's not too late to turn back now

baby, i need you

so strange, why

i won't be alive tomorrow

i'll never forget your beautiful face

i'm going outside to see the sunrise one last time

it's so beautiful

i know baby, another to live

your so beautiful

your picture isn't enough anymore

heaven is more beautiful

i'll be sure to go there

i don't know how

i'm just hoping

stop!

no, no, baby don't do it

you have no reason to do it

you're perfect in my eyes

no, no

watching the silence fill your eyes kills me inside

don't wanna lose you forever

you'll be gone forever

never to be seen again

my invisible ghost

roaming the earth, lost, stumbling

searching for who you are

we're losing this battle we call life

you fall into the arms of death

forever lost, your soul searching for it's end

you make it seem like an accident

but it's no accident

no, no

watching the silence fill your eyes kills me inside

don't wanna lose you forever

you'll be gone forever

never to be seen again

my invisible ghost

roaming the earth, lost, stumbling

searching for who you are

no, no, we all know you

amazing, full of life, but now

your gone, gone

your soul searching for it's end

searching, searching for who you are

Right now, everything just crumbled at my feet
While I kneel trying to pick up the fragile pieces
People continue to pass by as if I'm not there at all
I stay there, frozen, as everyone rushes on by

My body refusing to move, I'm stuck

Confused and shaken up

I feel restrained

I have no control

I've lost all that I am

Hey, I thought it was time I told you


Your the Shining Sun That Brightens Up My Day,
The Bright Stars I Could Stare At For Hours.
The Rain Drop On The End Of My Nose I Hesitate To Whip Away,
The Tall Tree That Started Growing On My Heart,
The Colourful Rainbow After The Storm,

Your The One That Makes Me Wake Up With a Smile On My Face


Your the Fast Tornado That Swept Me Off My Feet,
The Warm Breeze I've Been Waiting For,
The White Daisies Growing At My Feet I Could Lie In Forever,
The Calm Wind That Says It's Going To Be Okay,
The Waterfall That Flushes Away The Pain.
Your The One That Makes Me Wake Up With a Smile On My Face

I told him to leave here

Never to return again

My heart stopped

Skipping seven and a half beats

Chorus

They told me I'm an angel

"Heal the world with your presence"

He said it's not possible

Chorus

The thought of him lingers through my mind

Making my toes tingle, and my lips tremble

We're standing next to each other, yet we're so far apart

As our lives drift apart, we grow more fond of other people around us.

you see no fault in what's happening to us

so you continue to live, breathe

I don't think I know you anymore.

Though...

Your amazing, your beautiful, your mind blowing

Your annoying, your insane, your irritating

I would die for you, I would cry with you

I want to punch you, I want you gone

I'd give you my world if you asked for it

I hate you, I love you, I forgive you

I have thrown all my cards on the table for you, baby

You make it hard for me to breath

I'm fighting for your love, though I already have it

You hurt me so, I don't want you around anymore

My heart aching, I begin to choke back my tears

Though...

Your amazing, your beautiful, your mind blowing

Your annoying, your insane, your irritating

I would die for you, I would cry with you

I want to punch you, I want you gone

I'd give you my world if you asked for it

I hate you, I love you, I forgive you

I watched as you walked away from me and it broke my heart

Because today was the day, I didn't want you to go away

Though...

Your amazing, your beautiful, your mind blowing

Your annoying, your insane, your irritating

I would die for you, I would cry with you

I want to punch you, I want you gone

I'd give you my world if you asked for it

I hate you, I love you, I forgive you

Today was the day, I didn't want you to go away

I've never seen anyone so anxious

Fighting for what she believes in

Nothing ever happens

Disappointment and failure reaps her face

We all know

She's had enough, She's giving up

Her head held high when you walk by

I can see, she's screaming on the inside

Innocence stolen, her pure heart trampled

Never to see her face again, would you even care?

Tell her she was just a waste of your time

Stop the lies, she deserves honesty

Did you even love her?

Falling over you she has nothing left

She's dying

She's had enough, She's giving up

Her head held high when you walk by

I can see, she's screaming on the inside

Innocence stolen, her pure heart trampled

If she ran away from here, would you even notice?

She's fought this fight for far too long

Reaching out for you, scratching out her eyes

There's apart of her missing whenever your not around

She lies where you were once

She's had enough, She's giving up

I can see, she's screaming on the inside

Innocence stolen, her pure heart trampled

I believe I was born to be unhappy, but to make others happy. =)

I saw a man today, he looked as if he was aimlessly wandering the streets. As I passed him slowly, I heard him softly say "She's not gone, she's here, by my side holding my hand" I looked at his face as he smiled. I couldn't help but stop and ask, "Excuse me, but who's holding your hand?" he explains "my girlfriend, she loves me." Confused, I stated "Sorry, but why did you say she's not gone?" He fell to his knees and started to sob "she died today, somewhere along this road and I wasn't there to stop that car hitting her."

-I watched as he walked away and it broke my heart, though I know I'll see him tomorrow.

-You say nothing's wrong, your fine, then you laugh nervously like it's going to make me stop worrying about you. I can see it in your eyes and feel it in your absent kiss.

-I don't think he has any idea how much I really do love him.

-Have you ever loved someone so much it crippled you into insanity?

-Have you ever cared for someone as much as I do for you?

-We're standing next to each other, yet we're so far apart.

-I'm watching her, she misses you, she misses your scent, your glorious smile.

As our lives together drift apart, we grow more fond of the other people around us.
Seeing no fault in what's happening we continue to live, breath.
We live life, slowly becoming more and more different to each other.
I don't think I know you anymore.

i slipped into a deep, deep sleep.
i began to toss and turn, shaking, sweating.
dreaming of the same terrible nightmare over and over.
it becomes hard to breath, grasping at my sheets.
ripping and tearing, kicking and screaming.
i awake, releaved, the blistering sun hurts my eyes.

i can't, i can't deal with this anymore
yet it's like an addiction to me
i know, i know it's not good for me
but nightmares and daydreams keep me alive

sitting in class, at school.
worst class of the day, the teacher is talking soo much.
i place my arms on the table to rest my head and close my eyes.
wow, i see myself laughing and joking with you, like it used to be.
it sure looks better than school, my friend shakes me to wake me.
looking around i put my head on the table again, but it's gone.

i can't, i can't deal with this anymore
yet it's like an addiction to me
i know, i know it's not good for me
but nightmares and daydreams keep me alive

i can't seem to let go of you
every thought of you still makes me smile
why can't you see what your doing to me
your my daydream and my nightmare

i know, i know it's not good for me
but nightmares and daydreams keep me alive

We Take So Much in Life For Granted And Forget The Importance To All The Smaller Things In Life That Are Always There When We Go Home After School Or Even Pass In The Street.
A Break Up Between A Boyfriend And Girlfriend Is Hard Enough, But When Someone Close To You Dies, It's Like A Piece Of You Has Been Ripped Away Forever. Suddenly Everything Loses The Light And Meaning It Had Before, You Find Yourself Torn Down And Faking Every Smile Until You Feel Okay Again. The Only Thing Keeping You Strong Is All The Friends That Care So Much For You, But It Won't Ever Be The Same.

The Perfect Gift

A Large Box Is Handed To Me, I Can't Help But Want To Know What's Inside.
I Lift The Lid Off It, Only To Find A Smaller Box Inside The Large Box.
Yet Again, Eager To Find Out What's Inside I Lift The Lid, To Find..A Box.
Again..Lifting Off The Lid, Another Box. How Exciting.
You Can See The Disapointment On My Face And Sense The Frustration In My Movement And Speech.
I Think To Myself, It's Just A Whole Lot Of Boxes Filled With Other Boxes.
Lifting Yet, Another Lid. I Finally Get To A Box That Looks As If It Couldn't Get Any Smaller, But It Did. Hesitating To Open The Next Box, I Toss It Aside Instead.
Frustrated And Angry, I Storm Off To My Room. You Follow After Me, Holding The Box So Close And Hand It To Me Once Again, Saying 'Just One More Box, For Me' With A Smile On Your Face.
So I Open Just One More Box For You, Only To Find A Chain And A Heart Shaped Ring.

The Ring Is Ingraved.. 'Keep Me Safe And I'll Be Yours Forever'.

something i wrote a few days ago..

every thought of you hurts, every photo of you still makes me smile.
each step harder than the first, staring straight ahead like i have no destination anymore.
stuck between two situations, heart battling head, love battling hatred, trust battling fear.
being alone sounds good, although being alone with my thoughts could make me insane.
everything has gone hazy, everyday feels worse than the last, everywhere i go isn't as bright as i remember.
i went to that place we used to hang and it made me cry, i walked home and ran to my room, only to have my mum walk in and ask what was wrong, but i didn't know what to say to her and i didn't want her to feel like she had to fix this.
the last time i saw you i didn't know what to say, i just said what came to mind.